Studio
shinmera
2016.01.01
People are doing a 2015 look back to show their progress, so here’s how I’ve stagnated.
This is only partly a joke. In some regards I’m really struggling to see any improvement and that makes me incredibly, tremendously sad. Sure, I’ve started doing other stuff, but for the most part I’m still simply very unhappy with my style and that pains me every time I do anything. It just doesn’t look right– it just doesn’t look the way I want it to feel. In some ways I still feel like I’ve had it down the best with that very first work I’ve picked for January http://tumblr.shinmera.com/post/107210461299/, but I don’t know. I just really don’t know where to go or how to go about it – and to be perfectly frank I’m afraid to try and go back into style study since it absolutely fucking wrecked my days the last time I tried to work it out.
Well anyway. I’ve never been the confident type, for reasons that are in my opinion rather well-founded. I doubt that that’s going to change much in the future. I can only hope that I’m going to figure out this style bullshit, but on that I cannot be sure either. I just want it to happen sooner rather than later as it’s really dragging me down.
Let’s see what the next calendar brings.
Addendum: For those that want to have an easy look-see through last year’s drawings, see here, numbers 605 to 836.